Why do we rush through life?

Why do we rush through life?  Is it because we know we are going to die and we want to hurry to achieve all we want before we die? Is it to reach a level of success fast enough to have more years to enjoy it before we die?  Is it to prove a point? Is it to teach our children and set a good example? Is it to have enough in hand to be able to enjoy our retirement? Is it just because that is what society tells us... work, work, work?  Or is it because our inner voice just keeps us moving forward and fast?

I personally know that ever since I was very little I used to put a date on my dreams and goals... no it was not because my parents thought me that or because I learned that in school; I was born this way and I just always did that.  I remember always keeping a journal.. a diario as I would call it back then. I wrote my thoughts, my dreams, my goals, my problems and much more. Nobody told me to keep a journal, as a matter of fact, I am the oldest of 5 and I can tell you none of my siblings kept one... So why did I keep one? Who told me to do it? Who got me into that?  

Very young still I remember saying and writing... I must be married, have kids and own a house by the time I am 25! Now at 48 I ask myself... why?  Who set that age to be the age to be done with those things in my life? I am not sure but I can tell you many of the decision I made were based on that.  Maybe not the best decisions but they got me to reach my goal of achieving all those 3 things by age 25.

As I got older I kept doing that... I must do this by this time and that by that time... rushing and putting a pause on anything that was just for fun...  fun?  what do you mean? you have tons to do Faby. ... You can have fun when You get a better a job and are not living paycheck to paycheck, you can have fun when the kids get older and move out, you can do that when you get remarried, you can do that when you have more money, you can do that when you look better, you can do that when you are done with what you are doing..... Always later, later, later,  Why??

So I did get a better job and was no longer living paycheck to paycheck... but now I was too busy growing my business so now I had the money but no time.  Then the kids got older and we had more money so now we could just hang out... but guess what... I had spent all their life working to give them a better life since I was a single parent so they had been raised by babysitters.... they found their own friends so hanging out with me was not a priority... they had a life of their own.  What? wait a minute... I thought I was working hard to have money to have time to hang out with them... but guess what... they had grown ....  too fast.

That was my first eye opener.  at the end of 2012 I started awakening...  Thank God.

I had rushed all my life and I was not sure why but the more I saw around me, the more I noticed most people were doing the same thing.  I wanted to talk to all the parents of young kids and say... enjoy them, work will always be there, they wont, they will grow.  But I had to stop myself... we all grow and awake when the time is right.

Today I know that we follow our priorities and we live our lives to live up to those priorities and to what its most important to us. We can change those at any time we decide to change them. 

I also know that we all have a purpose and there is an inner voice trying to pull us to the right path to be able to reach that purpose but we are so busy with our lives that we dont hear it.  

I still find myself rushing but now I notice it and stop myself and say... Faby its about enjoying your life not rushing it to reach a goal.  You may die tomorrow so make sure you are enjoying today. Be responsible but enjoy your life.  That is a priority for me now. 

more to come.....    Faby Gonzalez July 8 2017